ғᴏʀɢᴇᴛᴛɪɴɢ ʙʀɪɴɢs ᴛᴏᴏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ sᴏʀʀᴏᴡ. ʀᴇᴍᴇᴍʙᴇʀɪɴɢ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ᴛᴏ ᴇᴠᴇʀʟᴀsᴛɪɴɢ ᴘᴀɪɴ.
ɪ sᴇᴇ. ɪ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀsᴛᴀɴᴅ ɴᴏᴡ. ɪᴛ's ɴᴏᴛ ᴀ ғɪɢʜᴛɪɴɢ sᴘɪʀɪᴛ, ᴏʀ ʜɪs ɪᴅᴇᴀʟs, ᴏʀ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ʜᴏᴘᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴅʀɪᴠᴇs ᴛʜɪs ᴍᴀɴ.
Tʜɪs ᴍᴀɴ, ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴍᴇ, ʜᴀs ɴᴏ ᴅᴇsɪʀᴇ ᴛᴏ ʀᴇᴍᴀɪɴ ɪɴ ᴛʜɪs ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ.
ᵗʳᶦᵍᵘⁿ ᵐᵃˣᶦᵐᵘᵐ
Currently watching :
Gachiakuta
Stranger Things (season 5)
The Mighty Nein
"Pain is a memory. You will live and you will struggle and you will find joy.
And you will remember your family from this breath to your dying days, because love
does not fade. Love is the stars, and its light carries on long after death."
ᶦʳᵒⁿ ᵍᵒˡᵈ
Yet in spite of this, I would remain with you all. 'Til the very end.
I'm just a restless soul, ao3 enthusiast, angst addict and whump lover !
Always looking for captivating distractions, feeding on emotions, set on a
neverending quest for immersion and sincerity.
I love to dive into books, movies, videogames, shows, music, anime,
and whatever free time that leaves me with is dedicated to nature and animals.
Trying to live a happy little life despite having this implicit feeling of inadequacy.
I'm introverted and probably not the most neurotypical cookie out there, but
nothing that prevents me from deeply enjoying friendly chats with players !
"But happiness is being able to hope, however faintly, for happiness.
So, at least, we must believe if we are to live in the world of today."
ᴼˢᵃᵐᵘ ᴰᵃᶻᵃᶦ ' ᴮˡᵘᵉ ᴮᵃᵐᵇᵒᵒ ᴶᵃᵖᵃⁿᵉˢᵉ ᵀᵃˡᵉˢ ᵒᶠ ᶠᵃⁿᵗᵃˢʸ
Nostalgic. Intent on accumulating figurines, feathers, plushies,
posters and books. I tend to browse art for hours, follow artists on various
platforms, and admire anything animation related. French but will
seldom be caught watching anything dubbed, no matter the language
the original version is my way to go...
All you can expect from this presentation is messy, organized (?) chaos.
"Every decision, every word, every silence defines who we are,
who we will be - who we could've been."
When my mind isn't off to its own aventures, I do love to actually travel.
Living in France, I've set foot in a few neighbouring lands
such as Portugal, Spain, Italy, Czech Republic, Ireland, Malta and Slovenia.
Hopefully I can continue to discover more of this lovely planet that is my whole world.
ᴛᴠ sʜᴏᴡs
ᴀsɪᴀ : Mr. Sunshine, Alice in Borderland, The Untamed, Squid Game, Word of Honor, Kingdom,
My Name, Stranger, Extraordinary Attorney Woo...
ᴏᴄᴄɪᴅᴇɴᴛ : Dark, After Life, Unorthodox, The Sandman, Brooklyn 99, Altered Carbon,
Chernobyl, Scrubs, Breaking Bad, Raised by Wolves, Godless, Black Mirror, Friendss,
Game of Thrones, Stranger Things, The Expanse, Peaky Blinders, Our Flag Means Death,
Mr. Robot, The Witcher, Supernatural, The Mandalorian, Narcos, Good Omens,
Maid, Sherlock, Mindhunter, Wednesday, Fallout, Merlin, House of the Dragons...
ᴠɪᴅᴇᴏɢᴀᴍᴇs
Shadow of the Colossus, Final Fantasy (VII, XV, XVI), Clair Obscur Expedition 33,
The Last Guardian, Baldur's Gate 3, The Witcher 3, Hogwarts Legacy,
Detroit Become Human, God of War (2018, Ragnarök), Watch Dogs, Skyrim,
BioShock Infinite, Beyond Two Souls, Jurassic World Evolution, ICO,
Ōkami, Heavy Rain, Battlefield 3 & 4, Cyberpunk 2077, and various series/duologies
(The Last Of Us, Death Stranding, Hades, Horizon, Alan Wake, A Plague Tale, Red
Dead Redemption, Assassin's Creed, Uncharted, Marvel's Spider-Man)...
(+ some games I only know through let’s players. Like Doki Doki Literature Club, Night in the
Woods, The Beginner's Guide, Far From Noise, Life is Strange, Cuphead, Dream Daddy, What
Remains of Edith Finch, Unravel...)
ᴀɴɪᴍᴀᴛɪᴏɴ (sʜᴏᴡs)
ᴏᴄᴄɪᴅᴇɴᴛ : Love Death + Robots, Castlevania, Avatar TLA et TLOK, Primal, Arcane, Final Space,
Invincible, Blue Eye Samurai, Hazbin Hotel, Wakfu, BoJack Horseman, Helluva Boss,
Blood of Zeus, Scavengers Reign, Star Wars Visions, Legend of Vox Machina, X-Men '97…
ᴊᴀᴘᴀɴ : Monster, Trigun, D.Gray Man, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Demon Slayer, Mushishi,
Ergo Proxy, Death Parade, Mob Psycho 100, Gangsta., Banana Fish, Kuroko's Basket,
Wolf's Rain, Witch Hat Atelier, Vinland Saga, The Summer Hikaru Died, Beastars,
L'Ere des Cristaux, Pluto, Vivy Fluorite Eye’s Song, Made in Abyss, Violet Evergarden,
Soul Eater, SNK, Chainsaw Man, FMA, Akatsuki no Yona , Sk8 the Infinity,
Bungō Stray Dogs, Yuri on Ice, JoJo, Rage of Bahamut, Death Note, Gachiakuta,
Cyberpunk Edgerunners, Kaiju No. 8, Uramichi Oniisan, Heavenly Delusion...
ᴄʜɪɴᴀ : All Saints Street, Link Click, Heaven Official's Blessing, Fog Hill of Five Elements,
MDZS, To Be Hero X, The All-Devouring Whale...
"Where in this world can a sane man be found ? We’re the same. We’re all the
same. None of us understands what it means to love all. Or the meaning of life…
Or the meaning of death…Or the meaning of our own battles."
ⱽᶦⁿˡᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵃᵍᵃ
Olympian psychopomp, messenger of the gods and divine trickster.
Protector of travelers, merchants, thieves and shepherds.
God of boundaries, roads, commerce, fertility, speed, travel, luck, language...
h e r m e s
"Someone has to leave first. This is a very old story.
There is no other version of this story."
ᴿᶦᶜʰᵃʳᵈ ˢᶦᵏᵉⁿ ⁻ ᵂᵃʳ ᵒᶠ ᵗʰᵉ ᶠᵒˣᵉˢ
I'm an avid reader. Buying books faster than I can read them...
I'd say I have a diverse library, but I'm quite fond of fantasy in particular
(by that I mean stuff like Lord of The Rings and Stormlight Archive,
and not ACOTAR or Fourth Wing, let's be real...). At times I dive into more
classical literature (The Odyssey, Frankenstein, No Longer Human...),
before binge-reading a bunch of manga and danmei novels.
Some action/thriller novels in between comics, a few history &
mythology inspired stories after several sci-fi books...
Still, my guilty pleasure I don't feel any actual guilt for is fanfictions.
Ao3 is my happy place, where I love to read character studies
and stories focusing on specifics themes like learning to be human,
self-esteem issues, scars, trauma responses, enemies to allies/friends/lovers...
"Longing siezes people more powerfully than poison and more deeply than illness.
Once it catches hold of you, there is absolutely no escape. This is quite a "curse", and
yet the adventurers all willingly devote themselves to its pursuit. For them, a life
without longing is more terrifying than death itself."
ᴹᵃᵈᵉ ᴵⁿ ᴬᵇʸˢˢ
Reading is time consuming, but videogames have been eating my
leisure time since childhood as well. I have to admit it's my favorite storytelling
format, surpassing movies, tv shows and even novels in my humble opinion.
Let's specify I have no interest in multi/competitive games. I mostly like
immersive, story-driven and single-player titles, which have their own universe,
a plot, and evolving characters. I admit, I don't appreciate the
dematerialization of games and the rise of microtransactions...
"Actual happiness always looks pretty squalid in comparison with the overcompensations for
misery. And, of course, stability isn't nearly so spectacular as instability. And being contented has
none of the glamour of a good fight against misfortune, none of the picturesqueness of a struggle
with temptation, or a fatal overthrow by passion or doubt. Happiness is never grand."
ᴬˡᵈᵒᵘˢ ᴴᵘˣˡᵉʸ ⁻ ᴮʳᵃᵛᵉ ᴺᵉʷ ᵂᵒʳˡᵈ
"What is a man but the sum of his memories ?
We are the stories we live, the tales we tell ourselves."
ᴬˢˢᵃˢˢᶦⁿ'ˢ ᶜʳᵉᵉᵈ ᴿᵉᵛᵉˡᵃᵗᶦᵒⁿˢ
"Language was just difference. A thousand different ways of seeing, of moving
through the world. No, a thousand worlds within one. And translation,
a necessary endeavor however futile, to move between them."
ᴮᵃᵇᵉˡ
"I understand now that boundaries between noise and sound are conventions. All boundaries
are conventions, waiting to be transcended. One may transcend any convention if only one
can first conceive of doing so."
"If we lived forever, maybe we'd have time to understand things.
But as it is, I think the best we can do is try to open our eyes,
and appreciate how strange and brief all of this is."
ᵂʰᵃᵗ ᴿᵉᵐᵃᶦⁿˢ ᵒᶠ ᴱᵈᶦᵗʰ ᶠᶦⁿᶜʰ
I do not wish to persist in your mind.
It’s such a special feeling, to be seen. To be heard. To be.
Yet uneasiness lies close underneath. I bask in these gentle feelings
for a while and then…I feel compelled to put some distance. To hide,
like I wish I could erase myself from your head. And I wish I could love
and bask freely, not having instant regrets and second thoughts and hyper awareness.
I wish I wish I wish, and it takes me nowhere.
"Close your eyes. Count to one. That is how long forever feels."
ᴷᵘʳᶻᵍᵉˢᵃᵍᵗ
"Never forget what it is like to see the world as a child, Senua : where every autumn leaf is a work
of art; every rolling cloud, a moving picture; every day a new story. We too emerge from this magic,
like a wave from the ocean, only to return back to the sea. Do not mourn the waves, the leaves and
the clouds. Because even in darkness the wonder and beauty of the world never leaves.
It's always there, just waiting to be seen again."
ᴴᵉˡˡᵇˡᵃᵈᵉ ˢᵉⁿᵘᵃ'ˢ ˢᵃᶜʳᶦᶠᶦᶜᵉ
I long to have more time, a better memory, and the means to satisfy
my curiosity. If I could, I'd walk every corner of the earth.
I'd learn more about history and life, about art,
about the very big and very small things of the world.
I'd read so much more and learn a few more languages.
Sometimes I just wish I could walk in one direction
without ever needing to turn back.
"I have always shook with fright before human beings. Unable as I was to feel the least particle of
confidence in my ability to speak and act like a human being, I kept my solitary agonies locked in
my breast. I kept my melancholy and my agitation hidden, careful lest any trace
should be left exposed."
ᴼˢᵃᵐᵘ ᴰᵃᶻᵃᶦ ' ᴺᵒ ᴸᵒⁿᵍᵉʳ ᴴᵘᵐᵃⁿ
"All those moments will be lost in time, like tears in rain. Time to die."
ᴮˡᵃᵈᵉ ᴿᵘⁿⁿᵉʳ
ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ's sᴏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴛɪᴍᴇ
ғᴏʀ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ sᴘᴇᴀᴋ ᴜᴘ, ʙᴜᴛ I ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ǫᴜɪᴇᴛ
ɪ'ʟʟ ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟɪᴄᴀᴛᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏsᴛ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴀɴᴛʀᴀ
ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴏᴡᴇʀ ɪs ᴏᴜᴛ ᴀɴᴅ I ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ᴛᴜʀɴ ᴛʜᴇ ғᴀɴ ᴏɴ
ᴰᵃʸᵍˡᵒʷ ⁻ ᶜᵃⁿ ᴵ ᶜᵃˡˡ ʸᵒᵘ ᵀᵒⁿᶦᵍʰᵗ
"And so, does the destination matter ? Or is it the path we take ?
I declare that no accomplishment has substance nearly as great as
the road used to achieve it. We are not creatures of destinations.
It is the journey that shapes us. Our callused feet, our backs strong
from carrying the weight of our travels, our eyes open
with the fresh delight of experiences lived."
"We’re all just looking out for something real."
ᴮˡᵃᵈᵉ ᴿᵘⁿⁿᵉʳ ²⁰⁴⁹
ɪ ғɪɴᴅ ᴏᴠᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴏᴜʀsᴇ ᴏғ ᴏᴜʀ ʜᴜᴍᴀɴ ᴇxɪsᴛᴇɴᴄᴇ
ᴏɴᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴄᴏɴsɪsᴛs ᴏғ ᴄᴏɴsɪsᴛᴇɴᴄᴇ
ᴀɴᴅ ɪᴛ's ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ'ʀᴇ ᴀʟʟ ʙᴀᴛᴛʟɪɴɢ ғᴇᴀʀ
"Reality is brimming over with beautiful things, scintillating feelings.
How many of them have I been missing ?"
⁵ᶜᵐ ᴾᵉʳ ˢᵉᶜᵒⁿᵈ
How truly satisfying, how downright enjoyable it is to simply take the time to notice
and appreciate beautiful things. Whether it's a landscape, a picture, an expression on
someone's face or a shade in the sky, a drawing, a melody or even just a sentence.
I'm constantly soaking up the magnificence of big and small things in life.
What else is there to do ?
"We should not pretend to understand the world only by the intellect; we apprehend it just as much
by feeling. Therefore, the judgment of the intellect is, at best, only the half of truth, and must, if it
be honest, also come to an understanding of its inadequacy."
ᶜᵃʳˡ ᴳᵘˢᵗᵃᵛ ᴶᵘⁿᵍ
ᴍᴜsɪᴄ
Twenty One Pilots, IAMX, Hollywood Undead, Fall Out Boy, Caravan Palace, Imagine Dragons,
Apashe, Odesza, Rare Americans, Gorillaz, Måneskin, Fàn Kǎ, The Neighbourhood,
Jaymes Young, Linkin Park, 2WEI, Two Feet, Mansionair, NF, Cigarettes After Sex, The XX,
grandson, The Tech Thieves, AJR, Queen, Mother Mother, Jesse Abbey, L.EJ., Lindsey Stirling,
The Score, VØJ, Missio, Nikke Ankara, Narvent, The 1975, Alan Walker, Zayde Wolf, Neffex,
Sleeping at Last, Ólafur Arnalds, Block B, Trevor Something, Zack Hemsey, Owl City, Halsey...
"Musical nostalgia, in other words, isn’t just a cultural phenomenon : it’s a neuronic command. And
no matter how sophisticated our tastes might otherwise grow to be, our brains may stay jammed on
those songs we obsessed over during the high drama of adolescence."
I don't really play the game anymore, not even on the server I'm from.
I'm here to read presentations and chat with kind souls, it's what I've been doing for
the last 6 years here. I get interested so easily, I only recoil from mentions of religion.
It's one thing I dislike on this server...also, all the blacklisted words.
What's up with that ? :') It's not a thing on equideow. It rubs me the wrong way.
"But your anguish isn't yours alone. What should one do, when what they want to
be isn't what they're best at ? Everyone fights, searching for the correct way to live
their lives. What do they seek by fighting ? How ought they live ? No one can say.
All we have is the right to waver. Like stray dogs that have hit rock bottom."
ᴮᵘⁿᵍᵒᵘ ˢᵗʳᵃʸ ᴰᵒᵍˢ
"The more one forgets himself - by giving himself to a cause to serve or another person to love - the
more human he is and the more he actualizes himself. What is called self-actualization is not an
attainable aim at all, for the simple reason that the more one would strive for it, the more he would
miss it. In other words, self-actualization is possible only as a side-effect of self-transcendence."
ⱽᶦᵏᵗᵒʳ ᶠʳᵃⁿᵏˡ ' ᴹᵃⁿ'ˢ ˢᵉᵃʳᶜʰ ᶠᵒʳ ᴹᵉᵃⁿᶦⁿᵍ
It’s easy to feel useless or insignificant, but while you alone might not change the whole
world, every day you have the power to turn someone else’s world around. I feel that
what matters is not the number or magnitude of the things we do, but simply whether
we do anything at all in the first place.
Let's not belittle our capacity for gentleness, my ghostly friend.
Tᴇʟʟ ᴍᴇ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴅᴇsᴘᴀɪʀ, ʏᴏᴜʀs, ᴀɴᴅ I ᴡɪʟʟ ᴛᴇʟʟ ʏᴏᴜ ᴍɪɴᴇ.
Mᴇᴀɴᴡʜɪʟᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ɢᴏᴇs ᴏɴ.
Mᴇᴀɴᴡʜɪʟᴇ ᴛʜᴇ sᴜɴ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʟᴇᴀʀ ᴘᴇʙʙʟᴇs ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴀɪɴ
ᴀʀᴇ ᴍᴏᴠɪɴɢ ᴀᴄʀᴏss ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴀɴᴅsᴄᴀᴘᴇs,
ᴏᴠᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘʀᴀɪʀɪᴇs ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴇᴘ ᴛʀᴇᴇs,
ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴜɴᴛᴀɪɴs ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ʀɪᴠᴇʀs.
Mᴇᴀɴᴡʜɪʟᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡɪʟᴅ ɢᴇᴇsᴇ, ʜɪɢʜ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʟᴇᴀɴ ʙʟᴜᴇ ᴀɪʀ,
ᴀʀᴇ ʜᴇᴀᴅɪɴɢ ʜᴏᴍᴇ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ.
Wild Geese, Mary Oliver
"There is no place in this world where we do not belong. The same goes for you.
That means you belong in this world, no matter where you might be."
ᴹᵘˢʰᶦˢʰᶦ
Each day, each year. Friend, don’t ever forget. You always implicitly expect things
to happen in your life. You expect for things to get easier, maybe. Just waiting
for things to feel normal, natural. But it never comes.
You were wrong, and they were wrong.
Now as you get older you also feel smaller. A bit more ridiculous of a human being
each year. It’s always been "fake it ‘til you make it!" but now it seems you’re just
never gonna make it, and you just have to accept living as a fraud.
This social discomfort is an everyday torment that’ll haunt you until
your very last breath, you’ll always be awkward and embarrassed
and so very tired to your ugly core.
Once you’re gone, you hope nothing’ll be left of you in this world.
Not a thought, not a memory, not even a chunk of your soul.
“To come to acceptance with things and feelings is rare and to accept them completely is a miracle.
It's impossible to make that moment come faster by yourself. Someday it comes unexpectedly. In
order to not become warped or heartless, let it go in a natural way. Let yourself feel sad when you
are, and let yourself forget when you do.”
ᴴᵒᵘˢᵉᵏᶦ ⁿᵒ ᴷᵘⁿᶦ ⁽ᴸᵃⁿᵈ ᵒᶠ ᵗʰᵉ ᴸᵘˢᵗʳᵒᵘˢ⁾
"The moments of peace that we find sometimes, they aren’t anything but warfare,
thinly disguised. And sometimes, surrender can be as savage as any attack."
ᴬˡᵗᵉʳᵉᵈ ᶜᵃʳᵇᵒⁿ
"Life is a labyrinth. Some wander around until their death in search of a way out of it."
ᵈᵃʳᵏ
"As long as I can make them laugh, it doesn’t matter how, I’ll be alright. If I succeed in
that, the human beings probably won’t mind it too much if I remain outside their lives.
The one thing I must avoid is becoming offensive in their eyes : I shall be nothing,
the wind, the sky."
ᴼˢᵃᵐᵘ ᴰᵃᶻᵃᶦ ' ᴺᵒ ᴸᵒⁿᵍᵉʳ ᴴᵘᵐᵃⁿ
"In that pure white landscape...you feel like you're on some strange, distant world."
ᴹᶦˡˡᵉⁿⁿᶦᵘᵐ ᴬᶜᵗʳᵉˢˢ
"Save what we can, but know that everything passes away."
ᴳʰᵒˢᵗ ᵒᶠ ᵀˢᵘʰˢᶦᵐᵃ
"Life really is a mysterious thing. Each and every life spins its own, totally separate tale. Yet they
become intricately entwined in each other. And no one knows how they will end up."
ᴰᵉᵃᵗʰ ᴾᵃʳᵃᵈᵉ
"It's one thing to question your mind. It's another to question your eyes and ears. But then again,
isn't it all the same ? Our senses just mediocre inputs for our brain ? Sure, we rely on them, trust
they accurately portray the real world around us. But what if the haunting truth is they can't ?
That what we perceive isn't the real world at all, but just our mind's best guess ? That all we
really have is a garbled reality, a fuzzy picture we will never truly make out ?"
ᴹʳ ᴿᵒᵇᵒᵗ
"The sensation that I've lost something lingers for a long time after I wake up."
ᴷᶦᵐᶦ ⁿᵒ ᴺᵃ ᵂᵃ
Endings are one of the things I despise the most. Happy, bittersweet, hopeful, tragic.
I hate it all the same. Endings of any kind hurt me to my core.
Ahh but well, lucky you : this is almost the end of this presentation !
Sorry for the length and randomness of this page, I just love compiling stuff
and contemplating. I'm like a bird compelled by shiny things.
Float away now, little ghost ! Thank you for haunting me, however briefly.
"I have lived my life as best I could, not knowing its purpose, but drawn forward like a
moth to a distant moon; and here at last, I discover a strange truth. That I am only a
conduit, for a message that eludes my understanding. Who are we, who have been so
blessed to share our stories like this ? To speak across centuries ? Maybe you will
answer all the questions I have asked. Maybe you will be the one to make all this
suffering worth something in the end."
ᴬˢˢᵃˢˢᶦⁿ'ˢ ᶜʳᵉᵉᵈ
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